Day 19-Cheat Meal--Was it worth it?

The honest answer is..... NO. It wasn't worth it. I am completely sick. Let me tell you, eating my meal was fantastic. I had been waiting for this for a week now. The feeling afterward of this horrible fullness is not ok. Maybe next time I think I'll skip the cheat meal. Worst part is... I didn't have a lot.

This was a rough weekend. I had a lot to do and a lot of things happened. I don't want to bore you with the details, but I'm coming out of my weekend off 23 pounds lighter and an even brighter positive outlook.

This week I am going to start looking for a dance class and/or a zumba class. I think it will be a lot of fun and much more fun than walking to nowhere on the treadmill. I mean the treadmill was invented by a sadist. Watching movies or having a buddy does help. Getting up really early starts to take it's toll. Up early... work.... gym again.... It's been very hard. I know it's paying off, I mean 23 pounds is a big deal, but I need a break.

I know the $25,000 would be an added bonus to me losing this weight, but the real success is me doing it. It's the emails, texts and phone calls that I get every day. I have a friend that has had a rough year. I never knew how to help. There was only so much I could say to make her feel better. I had no idea until today that though my personal endeavor I'm helping her too. She said "I love you and you can do it. I'm not on my meds and I'm trying to stay off them. When I get upset I think of you and the tattoo and I separate myself from my pain. I make a decision to stay me and not give into it. You can too. You helped to give me that strength."

I am giving myself that power back. Here's to another 19 days... no more cheats... that's for sure.