Day 15- Carbs are a part of me

So here we are at day 15 and I'm not anymore excited about bland food. I want to crave food that is good for me... but part of me still doesn't really understand food. I mean obviously fried food=bad. It's the good fat vs bad fad. It's the good carbs vs bad carbs. It's all a lot.

I'm so used to running through a drive through, getting what I want to eat and eating it. Now I am thinking, how do I make what I am craving healthier? Nothing makes French fries healthier. I mean really? Baking them? They are still carbolicious potatoes. How do I just turn it off?

This blog has been draining for me to write. I have been very open and honest with everyone reading. For my close friends it has been a shock how honest I have become. It's a very different side of me. I am very guarded because I don't want to get hurt. Now I know, no one wants to get hurt, but I take guarding myself to a different level. I emerge myself in other people's problems. I try so hard not to hurt anyone. I want to help. If anyone really wanted to get to know me, now is the time, while reading this blog.

If anyone has any questions for me please feel free to email me. I want to answer them as honestly as I can and turn a different leaf. I want to be honest to you guys and myself.

There are a lot of things I am looking forward to this year. I am going to go on a cruise with one of my best friends. I want to look awesome for it. New clothes. New me. I keep saying 2011 is my year to help me through this. I feel like a junkie looking for a fix whenever I am around food I want. Some days are easier than others. I know I was looking forward to my cheat meal... but I'm afraid that I will start the addiction to carbs again. Someone tell me what to do.