Day 63- Back by Popular Demand!!!

I know it's been almost a month since I wrote last. To say things have been stressful is an understatement. Without going into a lot of details.... it was a rough 20 days. The whole time I have been working really hard at keeping it all together, and sticking to a plan. I have a great support structure in place, but there are times that I just want this to be easy. I want to be able to get something healthy through the drive through and quickly to boot.

It's been such a rough ride. I'm so used to using food as comfort...I haven't slept in forever. Even when I get to bed early.... I lay awake thinking of the 100 things I have to do. I feel as if my life is changing again. It's true what they say "What doesn't kill you will make you stronger" I feel stronger for it. My brain just doesn't feel like cooperating sometimes. It keeps telling me.. hit that drive through... you are hungry and it's fast. Will that ever not be programmed in my head?

Many of you have been emailing, texting, just telling me that they want to hear more about this. It was incredibly draining and exposing to write this. I was starting to feel emotionally drained... and funny story... I'm starting to feel drained by not writing it. I'm working on being a better me to all of my friends. I am so used to helping my friends... some to the point I was enabling them to not have not to take accountability for themselves. Once I took that off my place recently... I feel much lighter. Soon I hope to feel even lighter in person. I'm down about 40ish give or take pounds now. I need to get more off obviously... .but I'm getting there. I knew this wouldn't happen overnight... even though I secretly hoped it would.

I will be in Savannah in about 14 days!!! I can't wait.. I get to see some really amazing people... and NOT eat any of the food.... good luck right?